Do you have a panic number? For me, it's seeing the 6! The minute the weight crept up to the 60kg it was all-stations-a-go-panic-alert-must-get-butt-into-gear. There was just no more coasting on my laurels anymore!
Initially I inwardly groaned when I realised I'd be back to tracking my food, despite obviously knowing and believing in the process. But 3 days into it and it has become normal again. Becoming habitual. Easy. Why I stopped I don't know. When you are in the crux of control, you truly wonder why you ever or how you ever lost it. I don't actually know the answer. All I know, is that when I am IN control, it helps in all areas. My self doubt disappears. I feel confident, even if I'm not where I want to be. I am happier. I make better choices. I believe. I know I'll get to where I want to be... and I stop the self loathing and look at things more objectively.
"You fattie, you just like food too much, everyone else around you doesn't go up and down, you are doing terribly",
"this is normal. Many people fluctuate over summer and winter. As long as you reign it in when you need to, you are doing well and living the reality of life and should be commended, don't be so harsh on yourself"....
I urge everyone to commit for just 3 days if their motivation is lacking. Something switches and after 3 days of being honest and meeting the goal of tracking, motivation comes knocking loudly!
My lunch today:
I've returned to swapping out bread for thin wife wafers. It saves me about 180calories. I still have a bit of mayo and bbq sauce. Yum. I also personally ADORE Blue Cheese. Regular cheese is so high in calories and low on taste. Blue cheese packs a punch, and is only 60cals for 1 cubic inch. You don't need more than that!
I enjoyed every damn mouthful! Doesn't that look yummy?
225calories total for both.
I've remembered the joy I got from putting together food like this. Not sure why I backslid into not thinking about the combination of calories or tracking. Musing on it, I'd say it's a mixture of lying to myself (maybe I wanted to eat some things and decided I'd rather not know), a bit of laziness, a bit of 'well I've blown the calories the last 4 nights what's tonight gonna matter" a bit of "I'm at someone else's house for dinner/party it would be rude not to"... a bit of over confidence in my self and a belief that I'd be okay... I do have a body that retains water/salt and gains weight at the drop of a hat, sometime that just downright sucks....
But, here's to control! May it hang around for a wee while :D
I do like the feeling!